Masters oh master… I don’t realize that it’s will going to be a though way to get into the masters program at first. I thought masters are for those that who didn’t really ready to step foot into working environment like me and yet who doesn’t being able to get a job. But for me, I have set my mind up since I’m still doing my bachelor to continue my masters degree before I work. It’s not like I want to be a lecturer when I’m graduated but I just love to gain knowledge (hahaha, please believe me!).
So, before this I only aim to continue the program at my previous university under my previous supervisor who has offered me several times to just continue working with him since he got a new research will be running this year. But, I stupidly decided to try applying for UTP postgraduate program just to get close to home. Even when I’ve come to get my referral form from for my UTP application from him he still try to convinced me that his research is better than what in my proposal. I even remember his jokes about his awfully handwriting in that form;‘they will hate you because of my handwriting’. And believe me sir, they did! Ngaaaa~. After one month, I have been told that I just been screened to second stage candidate and will not be able to get the research assistant scheme program. How I will be studying at UTP without that scheme? I will never be afforded to study there without any financial aid.
My prospective supervisor said that PETRONAS didn’t have enough budgets to hire GA as many as last year and they have so many ‘high priority candidate’ need to be considering first. The ‘high priority candidate’ who means the UTP graduate student who has applied too is beyond their expected since there were so many of them who didn’t have fate to get hire in PETRONAS.
So, what about my fate??? …………………..
Luckily, (if this can be consider lucky, =p) my prospective SV is happen to have a new project that about to start early 2010 which this project is a collaboration between him and TNBR (TNB Research). The project is about designing a robust fludized bed gasifier which can incorporate both solid and liquid feedstock. The feedstock will include low quality coal, petcoke, biomass, sludge and effluent waste. The project area has been given and I need to choose some of the area that will be interest for me (gulp! What a though research I thought). BUT, there were some other things that he did mention which is I need to stay in BANGI since the equipments are all in TNBR and this mean that I have to stay FAR AWAY again from home!. Wuwuwuwuwu~ (!_!)
So, I just hope that this one will work for me since I really bored staying at home with nothing to do. ‘Please ALLAH, help me in pursuing my dreams…. I just want to fulfill my parents will which they want me to further my study and becoming an excellent example to my siblings.’ Yes, it always is their hope to see me have a highest education possible and maybe that will make them feel that they have succeeded in raising child. Whatever their reason is, I am praying hard that I will be able to accomplish what I have started. ‘You can do it kaka!!! Aja2 fighting!!!!!’
Please everyone, pray for me…….
